In the middle of this pandemic, I've had a lot of time to think about life and the state of my mind. I've been social-distancing at home for more than six weeks now. With the exception of the man I love and the grocery store, I've resorted to face time for my social interactions. I … Continue reading On Memory and Day Dreams →

Once upon a time, about five years ago, I started a blog for school. I can't exactly remember why I got away with blogging for a semester project, but I did. I created this blog where I reviewed each episode of the Gilmore Girls. Or at least that was the plan. The reviews stopped somewhere … Continue reading On Gilmore Girls →

This week the news dropped that Washington State schools will be canceling the return to classrooms for the remainder of the year. In most cases, students will finish out the year through various online classroom adaptations. This year's class of 2020 will be the ones that miss out. My heart is sad for all of … Continue reading Class of 2020 →

A few nights ago, as I closed my eyes, the anxiety elephant sat on my chest and refused to go away. Every time I managed to steer my mind into a positive direction, a safe direction, she would land back in the minefield. I wouldn’t notice until tears were streaming down my face. I would … Continue reading Anxiety Elephants & All the Change →

My birthday is next week and it's honestly my favorite day of the whole year. From this last statement, you might assume I love the spotlight. But you know what they say about assuming. That's really quite far from the truth. In fact, that bright beam makes me a bit uneasy most days. I can, … Continue reading Let Birthday Week Commence! →

Have you ever watched things explode into a fiery rage? No hypotheticals here. I'm talking about a three-thousand-degree fire that melts thousands of pounds of metal in red and blue firey rage. Like Trogdor, only better. Yep, there. I said it. Better than Trogdor. It was like magic and burn your face off heat got … Continue reading Firey Rages & Writing Again →

I went to the eye doctor today for the first time since 2015. I honestly thought it had only been three verging on four years, but I looked it up. 2015. 5 years! My vision has been on a slow decline for a while now. It's always been a slight correction, but over the last … Continue reading On Vision →

Two years ago, I would have been a sobbing mess on a day like today. I would be spiraling into an abyss without knowing how to climb out. Today, my mind wants to spiral. There are moments when tears prick at my eyes but I push forward despite my insides physically hurting. Anxiety does that … Continue reading Anxiety Circa 2020 →

At the start of 2019, I'd just lost my grandfather, I broke ties with a close friend just before, and honestly, I was a right mess. The holidays were postponed until January and I was as grinchy as it gets. I'd been grinchier in the past (probably) but this was a different kind of inner … Continue reading On 2019 →

"If I had died today, I would have told Lenard Nimoy hello for you," said a tear-stained fourteen-year-old girl. "How can that be? There's no way I would have let a shooter come in here to get you, without having first gone through me. If it was your last day, I'd have met Lenard Nimoy … Continue reading On Yesterday →