For the first time in six months, I feel genuinely good. I feel positive about who I am and where I am emotionally. I feel comfortable in my own skin again. I don't feel stuck in my head. Dare I say, I feel a bit of peace. The good side of being human. I don't … Continue reading On Feeling Human →

I talk a big gameAnd I am trying to healI want to know What it is you feelI miss you in the morningAnd when I close my eyesI miss you when I want to laughAnd when I want to cryYou never told meNot a single timeFeelings always scared youSo you cut and run just fucking … Continue reading What It Is You Feel →

I just finished my first intense workout since the breakup. There are moments when I'm floored that any time has passed at all. Then there was that workout where it feels as if I'm finding my heartbeat again. I'm sweaty and gross, and I'm going to pop into the shower next. But I really just … Continue reading On Moving Forward →

I've been angry at the world. Not just a few months of anger watching my life embody the tower forever falling, but a lifetime of grievances. I'm exhausted both mentally and emotionally. I'm mad at people; I'm mad at situations; I'm mad at all the things which find their base in ego and selfishness. Most … Continue reading I am Making a Tarot Deck →

I wrote a thing a while back in the wee parts of 2019. I'm going to include it below. As I reread this piece, I was struck by how much it still felt like my truth. I guess no matter how much I change over the years, the heart of who I am and my … Continue reading On Fate vs Destiny Part 2 →

I am okayI am not great or soaring or crying or free falling Waiting to hit the ground again and againFresh bruises on my heartI am okayI am not day dreaming or wondering whyItching at questions that never change the world My view is the same either wayI am okayI am not haunted by a … Continue reading I am okay →

My thoughts are jumbled these days Always going twenty ways I can't think straight And I don't sleep Just spend most of my time Looking for a little relief I do fine for most of every day Then you cross my mind It's like I'm falling off that cliff The whole time I don't have … Continue reading Saying Goodbye →

The past few days have truly been a few of the hardest. I've been channeling my energy and focus into making art. As long as I stay focused on something, that doesn't allow for much internal spinning, I don't break down in tears. Every day is a little easier than the last. Until I'm punched … Continue reading On Creating Art →

There is this fountain of words inside of me. I reach my hand out to grasp them, only they slip through. Water beads down my wrist and the words are lost again. They get lost in the emotions which come in waves. I want to ask why but I don't really want to hear the … Continue reading On Breakups →

Sometimes I think about this idea of how little moments change whole entire lives. How a single decision can make an impact. How a stranger can say something that changes the way we view the world. Changes so grand that we fall in love and build lives. We quit jobs or move to different places. … Continue reading On The Chain Reaction of Choices →