I closed my eyes for a mere moment, not much more then a blink really, and suddenly tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I could throw a rock at December and hit it square between the eyes. Where has time escaped to? One minute I was counting down to Halloween which I equate with an excuse to see Rocky Horror and the next red and green have been vomited all over the isles of every store I frequent. It’s a bit obnoxious actually.
Most years I’m all for this parade of insanity. I love me an excuse to listen to Bob Rivers. But this year feels like it’s slipped away and I’m not sure where it went. There are likely time theft culprits but it’s quite a bit more likely that I’m just feeling the holiday blues.
I’ve decided this year I’m going to try to make everyone I love, something. In a way, it’s getting back to the meaning of the holidays or some bullshit like that. I think. I’m a shopper so you know that’s a given. But I’ve been taking the time to actually make gifts. It’s not really a new concept, just one I haven’t had time for in recent years. It’s been an almost cathartic process. Admittedly I’m not great at the things I’m making so it’s taking me a bit longer than I anticipated.
My great uncle is in the hospital. He recently had an infection that went to his blood stream and then he had a heart attack. I don’t deal with this stuff well. He’s like the grandfather I never had. And my great aunt is the grandmother I always wished I had. I try to visit them as often as my calendar and pocketbook allow. Which is sometimes only once a year. I’m going to spend my holiday break with them. If there is one lesson I’ve learned this year, it’s that sometimes our time with people is short. I made a promise to myself, I wouldn’t take that for granted again. I’m incredibly grateful for both of these people and I lose my breath at the thought of not seeing either of them again.
But the year is not over.
I read something that struck me as wonderful today. “May the last two months of this year be the plot twist you’ve been waiting for.”
I sure hope so. I invite with welcome arms a little surprise into my life. Let it be something good.